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Appearances

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For those who have just started to awaken.. sometimes it feels like you struggle in vain. Sometimes it feels like you are working so hard or giving the best you have and still suffer. Suffering is part of the journey. A man once said that you must embrace suffering and make friends with it.

Very easy to say yet very difficult to do.

You must not let the darkness in.

You must keep it at bay and make friends with it.

For darkness cannot live without the light and light cannot live without the darkness.

Balance.

I’ve been struggling a lot recently… trying to find my moral compass amidst all the chaos. I’ve been trying so hard to be good just to wonder.. what is good? Who defines kindness and morality?

Do we define it based on our experiences and emotions or do we just follow a code?

Do we just follow someone else’s rules or do we just feel it?

Can we actually feel in our guts when we are being truly good? When we are being truly kind?

Measurements.

Who creates them and who sets the standard for what we should do and feel, let alone act?

I’ve found myself searching for answers tirelessly…
I used to think this absurd idea that I am bound to achieve everything I want, but only through pain and suffering. That there is no other way.

I think I was wrong but I am still not completely sure.

Because the truth is… we must sit down in silence with ourselves and question everything.

At the end of it, I truly believe that the answers will be felt in our guts, in our minds and in our hearts.

So do not be fooled by appearances.

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About love

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Love is universal, my friend.

Antonio Banderas as Pierre Dulaine in Take the lead

Love is universal, just like math is… but I believe love has a magic layer sprinkled upon it so that it holds together perfectly the entire universe.

I believe there is nothing but hollowness in our lives if love is not a part of it.

Unfortunately, as we have all witnessed it, our universe began shattering a long time ago and it keeps shattering because of lack of love.

Such a simple notion and yet such powerful abstraction.

An unseen energy that is capable of making or breaking creatures.

I myself, have experienced so much hatred before I learnt how to create love.

I still struggle at times. Just like everybody else.

This is why it is important for us to forever remind ourselves that we are all capable of giving and receiving love, as long as we make the right, selfless choice.

Love is inspiring and all around us, in the trees that shake their leaves on the ground that we so gently walk on, in the sun that keeps us warm, in the plants that emerge from the coldest earth, in the animals that give us unwavering affection, in the snowflakes that melt at the slightest touch of our fingers, in the energy that binds together our whole world.

So let yourself love, let yourself embrace the suffering and then let yourself love some more.

I aspire to reach not a place filled just with love, but a place where love can breath easily among other essential feelings.

So in a time when it is so hard to see through a fog of emptiness and shallowness…
where does your love stand?

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Codependency

“Love and peace of mind do protect us. They allow us to overcome the problems that life hands us. They teach us to survive… to live now… to have the courage to confront each day.”

Bernie Siegel

I’ve been in this journey for so long, but I still feel at the beginning of it.

What journey? Well, that I'll tell you. 

My journey is about self-discovery, self-teaching and self-acceptance.

I’ve always wanted to share my experience with other people, just like I was able to partake in another people’s journey, but have postponed it for such a long time, it feels like forever.

I’ve decided to give myself the courage I need in order to do this.

Codependency. 

That thing that makes us tremble at the touch of a person, and the sound of his/her voice. The need to be around a person so bad. For me that is codependency.
What happens when it’s only one-sided?

Right, it’s just dependency or addiction.

Worse, when it interferes with your personal life, your wishes and aspirations. When it’s the only thing you think about and the only thing you want most, that’s when you have to realize and remember…

What about my person?

How come I totally forgot about myself?

My wishes, the pleasures that I used to have in life, my routines, my sleep, my overthinking, exhausted mind..

And then you have to realize you have to put a stop to it.

I’ve been told so many times that happiness is a state that is found within one’s self.
That happiness is not given to us by people, nor do things bring us happiness.

But that we give it to ourselves when we have finally embraced our own person.

When we have finally accepted ourselves and leart how to love US.

And how to do that?

Well, I am no expert but with time and experiences and mistakes, come lessons that you can apply on a daily basis. Lessons that can help you arrive to your designated dream spot in life.

To be who you want to be.

To love and be happy.

I want you to stay tuned, be here with me and discover together how to reach that happiness and state of well-being.

I want us to live our journeys together and learn together.

About me

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Hello, I am Lavinia, just your typical former programmer. Now I offer support for ERP – related matters, as a way of earning. I work a 9 to 5 job and then I go home to my beloved Frenchie and work towards bettering myself. I’ve had an interest in health, inner journeys, spirituality and nutrition since forever and now I have decided I could share some of it with other people and vice-versa.

What’s in it for you?

I would like us all to develop together while having fun on the path towards a journey of love, acceptance, health and spirituality.

Subscribing is indeed helpful and I hope we can grow and evolve together, I hope that we learn from our mistakes together, but even if it’s not the case, I really wish you the most fullfiling life on this earth.

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