
For those who have just started to awaken.. sometimes it feels like you struggle in vain. Sometimes it feels like you are working so hard or giving the best you have and still suffer. Suffering is part of the journey. A man once said that you must embrace suffering and make friends with it.
Very easy to say yet very difficult to do.
You must not let the darkness in.
You must keep it at bay and make friends with it.
For darkness cannot live without the light and light cannot live without the darkness.
Balance.
I’ve been struggling a lot recently… trying to find my moral compass amidst all the chaos. I’ve been trying so hard to be good just to wonder.. what is good? Who defines kindness and morality?
Do we define it based on our experiences and emotions or do we just follow a code?
Do we just follow someone else’s rules or do we just feel it?
Can we actually feel in our guts when we are being truly good? When we are being truly kind?
Measurements.
Who creates them and who sets the standard for what we should do and feel, let alone act?
I’ve found myself searching for answers tirelessly…
I used to think this absurd idea that I am bound to achieve everything I want, but only through pain and suffering. That there is no other way.
I think I was wrong but I am still not completely sure.
Because the truth is… we must sit down in silence with ourselves and question everything.
At the end of it, I truly believe that the answers will be felt in our guts, in our minds and in our hearts.
So do not be fooled by appearances.

